Introduction

As some of you know may know or not know it has been a rough road to this point….

 A couple years ago I had a beautiful little boy named Bo and right when he was set to come home he caught parvovirus and went to play in that big dog park in the sky. I have looked at other dogs and puppies since then and no one seemed quite right. It wasn’t until a late Saturday in July that I came across and ad on kijjji for a puppy. Upon looking at the pictures and reading the information, I knew he was the right one , I knew he was meant to be mine. So after some quick phone calls , texts and emails and quick thinking on mine and Cory’s part to determine if we were really ready for such a big life change; we had made arrangements for my mom to go meet the puppy and the breeder to get a feel since we were not able to just pick and leave to PA that day. A couple hours, some more text and phones calls later , he was ours…well he was on hold for us.  Thus began the long wait for him to come home. That day finally came home on Aug 14-14.

The moment she handed him to me I fell in love and I mean the love where you know something is so right and that piece that had been missing is finally in place. Don’t get me wrong I have been so happy since sept 2013 when I met Cory but this was different, this is something that I have had missing in my heart and in my soul for along as I can remember. I don’t want kids and Cory is happy to not have another so this is my child.

I feel pretty to have gotten to bond with him so quickly and as you will be able to tell by the pictures I will post and the things I will write he is a total mama’s boy.

I did it. 
I’m leaving my job after only 4 months. It’s been a great experience and a great learning process.

I've learned that I need more action. I’m going to another office but it’s a business with customers and plans and a clear cut plan of what each day needs to bring.

I’m also starting to help Alana with a new adventure. I’m not sure what it is or what it will be yet but I think it will be lots of fun and lots of work. I think it will bring me closer to my dream of opening up my own thrift/consignment shop

It’s something I've been thinking and dreaming of for a couple months and maybe right now all I need to do is start collecting over the summer and have small sales in the fall/winter, maybe I could sell out of there every other weekend, get it to be a regular thing. I have a garage that I have full use of so that could store a lot of stuff. Maybe work it I like the pop up shops I have started seeing around. I need a name though and more of a plan….right now it’s just in the dream stage but it makes getting through the day better because I can scheme on names and look online for sales and Kijiji for funky things. 

at a crossroads....

i feel like im at a crossroads - on one hand i want to leave my job but on the other i feel terrible leaving after only 4 months....at what point do you walk away because you have the gut feeling that it just isn't right?

i know that im ment for something different....i think i was so excited to leave McD that i didnt really think about all this would entail and now im feeling more and more that im just not cut out for it.

im going to talk to a career counselor and see if they can give me some direction but falling short of that im going to stay applying at other places because the golden rule is dont walk away till you have something to walk to and really its not fair to me or them if my hearts just not in it cause im just wasting everyone's time.

#love #fishing #home #candlelake

tomorrow i turn 29

i dont feel like its my birthday, when i was younger birthdays felt special , felt like you were the only person in the world and the whole place was celebrating you and the fact that you were another year old

maybe its because money has been tight lately.Cory had some trouble at the beginning of the month and i helped well the problem is that i helped so much that i cant celebrate the way i want or wish and i know i should be happy that i have someone in my life who loves me but he cant spoil me and treat me how i feel like a boyfriend should on his girlfriends birthday
im also missing my mom and dad, they are gone again this year and mom forgot to leave me a card to open and i know it shouldnt be that big of a deal but it just feels like everyone who i love , who is close to me forgot to celebrate me

i have a get together planned with my close friends but at this point i dont even feel like doing that - i dont even feel like going out tonight or even going over to cory's house - i feel like curling up and crying and sleeping away the day i was born. i guess i just want to feel young again , to be spoiled for one day out of 365