random date update

as of late i like to think that im in a good place, mentally and emotionally so i allowed myself to go on this random date with my dad's friend son. he is a super nice guy, very sweet but there is just no spark, no initial attraction. i feel pretty shallow for saying that but come on who are we kidding looks play a part in whether we are attracted to someone or not. anyway i kinda messed up and have another date with him tomorrow to see Avatar (the movie made like a billion dollars and i wanna see what all the fuss is about) anyway im just not sure how to let him down. whatever i will deal with it when it comes, i just feel bad cause i know that he likes me more than i like him and our dad's know each other. arrrrg !!!! i shouldnt have done this again....i did this with Haldan and while it was great in the beginning, it ended badly and now our parents dont really talk anymore (this happened way before THE EX)

anyway like i was saying im in a good place so ive decided to give online dating another shot. im not expecting anything out of it but i just wanna see what happens b/c i feel like ive gotten to a place where i can start to think of being involved with someone again....anyway i just wanna take whatever comes along very slow and carefully so here's to hoping. wish me luck !!!