how can i fix something if i dont know what's broken?

im not happy and i havent been for awhile and i dont know what to do to make things better. im trying so hard to fix whatever it is that is wrong but i dont know whats wrong so how can i fix it.....all i want is that place in the sun cause i feel like ive been in the dark for so long and im tired . im tired of feeling this way and i just want things to be better so bad that it hurts. my heart hurts. my mind hurts. my spirit hurts.

i should believe that everything happens for a reason but what ? what is the reason for all this pain that im feeling? something has got to give somewhere and its gotta be all better soon cause if it isnt i just dont know what to do .....