sometimes I feel really alone
sometimes I get in my head and over analyze a situation
sometimes I feel hopeless

I had a great weekend, met a great guy and I want it to go down the right road but every fibre of my being is telling me to stop and run
its telling me that it wont work
its telling me that he will fuck me over just like every other guy before him and everyone after

people say oh T don't worry, you'll meet someone when the times right but if I sabotage every good thing (or what I think are good things) then will it really?
they say that he wasn't right....it ever going to be?
they say just forget and move on

they don't know what the hurt feels like
they don't know how I pretend to be happy and smile and go through the day like I don't care when really deep down I care to much and maybe that's my problem is that I care to much to soon
maybe I shouldn't sleep with them right away
maybe I should just play it cool

maybe its all my fault
maybe something is wrong with me

maybe......