November 19, 2009

so damm easy to add up all the pain

as of tues at lunch i am no longer at my job.

im moving home till we get back from mexico and then back to stoon for feb 1.

am i happy i crashed and burned here in regina? of course not

do i feel like that last few months have been a waste? not entirely, i mean emotionally and mentally i think im better b/c of it but moneywise it was probally one of the worst choices i could have made.

when me and Sam were fighting, she wrote me an email saying that i needed to get my life together....well i had my life together and it got shattered into a million pieces and i felt so very lost but i belive that ive done and am doing the very best that i can to pick up all those pieces and make them fit again.
is it always gonna be bright and shiney ? no its gonna be dark and messy and im gonna hit some high highs and some low lows but i have to have faith that it will all work out b/c if i dont have faith then what am i really fighting for. i dont think it will be easy to live in stoon but thats a bridge i will have to cross when i get there b/c i cant keep running anymore.

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