last night i was having a conversation with my mom regarding the fact that B & C were questioning my why i didnt have a boyfriend or even want on for that matter and she said i just want you to be happy.....
why dose my happiness have to come from a guy?
why cant it come from the relationships i have with my friends and family?
why cant it come from my career?
why cant it come from my hobbies ? and my love of travel and trying new things?
she said i was totally right and then she said im so much stronger than my brother. she worries about him, bout his life choices and his ability to see beyond whats right in front of him.....i said all this to her have i ever been a big get-married-and-have-kids kind of girl? she said no never .
why have a relationship/marriage?
95% of all marriages end in divorce (i know thats not a reason to not do it)
i said to her...do you really want me to call you crying on the lawn at 3am or deal with the emotional disaster that was up to 6 months after the end with THE EX cause i really have no need to feel any of that again. im not saying im not gonna get into a relationship with someone because im scared of being hurt, im just being realistic and im really starting to think despite what all my friends are doing and how they are feeling and how they think i should feel is that marriage just isnt for me and im really ok with that.
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