ready for the sunshine

last night i got my answer concerning JD, we are just gonna be friends, he thinks saturday was a mistake and wants to just to stay friends so i told him that it would be hard for me to do that because my feelings for him havent changed for him havent changed in the last 4 years but i would rather have him in my life as a friend than not at all but after processing it till like midnight i dont think i can do that, i think with him its all or nothing and thats fine i was fine for 3 years with him not in my life so these past months was just a nice lil bonus so if he ever texts me or calls again then I need to just say to him if you don’t want something more, please don’t talk to me because its just to hard for me…you know there was a point over the last lil bit where I thought I would never be happy with someone again like I was with C but after just getting that giddy excited feeling with JD lets me know that I can have that again and it will happen when its supposed to happen, so ya I’m taking a break from boys till agrabition when I hope to find a good ole country boy hahaha