funk

i must say that ever since my last post ive been in a funk.

im not really sure how it happened.
i used to think i was awesome and i still do but not to the extent i did.

i miss it.

i had so much fun before.
i was so much more fun.

i want it back.
im gonna get it back !

starting tomorrow .....
(im back at the lake for 10 days so im sure i will have a story or two before weeks end...)

you cant change what you dont acknowledge

ive hit a brick wall.
i need to stop drinking.
im not a good person when i drink.
im scared that if i dont stop, something bad will happen.

i feel like im on the edge of cliff and im so beyond scared to jump that i feel i will be stuck on the edge forever. i need to change this. i need to jump.

i want a good realtionship but i feel like i dont deserve that because i didnt appreciate my realtionship with the ex for what it was.

i need to stop.
stop drinking
stop sleeping around
stop running
just stop

acknowledging it is the first step......right?

Let love be the reason. Let love be your drive. Let love fill you with power and the authentic purpose of being who you really are. Let love heal the hurts and inspire your actions. Let love fill your thoughts with goodness and your intentions with kindness. Let love brighten every corner of your world. Let love live within you, and spread beauty through all you do. Let love be, with all you have and all you are.

Ladies, be honest with yourself about who you are and have the courage to be that person. If you want to fuck, then go fuck. If you want to get drunk, get drunk. And there is nothing wrong with sucking a dick. If people try to judge you or shame you for doing safe, consensual things that make you happy, I can guarantee you they're bad people. Tell them to lick the dark part of your ass, and then cut them out of your life. No on has it all figured out, especially not the people who are acting like they do and judging you because of it. Pretending to be something you're aren't because you're trying to please a bunch of judgmental hypocrites and shitheads is not the way to be happy. Living the life you want to live is. It really is that simple. –Tucker Max