i dont feel like its my birthday, when i was younger birthdays felt special , felt like you were the only person in the world and the whole place was celebrating you and the fact that you were another year old
maybe its because money has been tight lately.Cory had some trouble at the beginning of the month and i helped well the problem is that i helped so much that i cant celebrate the way i want or wish and i know i should be happy that i have someone in my life who loves me but he cant spoil me and treat me how i feel like a boyfriend should on his girlfriends birthday
im also missing my mom and dad, they are gone again this year and mom forgot to leave me a card to open and i know it shouldnt be that big of a deal but it just feels like everyone who i love , who is close to me forgot to celebrate me
i have a get together planned with my close friends but at this point i dont even feel like doing that - i dont even feel like going out tonight or even going over to cory's house - i feel like curling up and crying and sleeping away the day i was born. i guess i just want to feel young again , to be spoiled for one day out of 365
