dose everyone get a happy ending?
ive been struggling with this question alot lately and im really starting to loose faith in mine. tonight i went for dinner and drinks with some good friends and they are happy and in healthy realtionships and where they want to be in life and they were talking about getting older and getting married and things of that nature and they are all 24. i made a comment about oh god i feel old and one said to me thats ok T you dont want those things.
its not ok because i do.
i do want that one person who can make me smile when i feel like the whole world has turned its back on me.
i want a home not just a house.
no one wants to be alone.
im really starting to loose faith in my happy ending.
maybe i am one of those people who dosent get one. maybe at the end of my days i just get an ending.
what have i done thats so bad? what karmic fallout did i do that i dont get that smile? that warm fuzzy feeling? that love?
maybe im still hurting from me and C breaking up.....maybe i still have those scars that will never heal but dose that mean i get punished for life?
