im not sure how to label this post. im not even sure anyone reads this anymore. i think its more of an online journal to see where im at and look at back at how far ive come.

74 days till we get married. 75 days and it will all be over and life can go on.

if i knew before i started planning / saving what i know now i would have skipped it all and went away to get married.

i hate every part of it . its so stressful and frustrating. i dont think me and cory have fought so much in our entire relationship. i love him and want this marriage but the wedding is a whole other story....

i dont think i will write to much today as im not feeling great and its hard to look at the screen for too long. 

fingers crossed its not another stroke.....